The first of mine

It was in the early year of 2015 when I first met her, and that one glance decided my very first love story.


It was SEP101 (30th May 2015) when I met her again. She approached us for Task Force, and eventually started her journey in U-Schos with the SEP team.

Along the way we participated events, we worked together. In the middle of 2016 she accompanied me to prepare and deliver food from places to places simply because I can fall asleep driving alone, and joined me for dinner so that I have companion for the night. I'm grateful that she has always been the one who are there for me, yet I don't see it.

That retreat in PJ (15th Oct 2016) was the game changer. When I first held her hand, when we were so closed to each other in the night, when serenity hit, and there I decided that she, will be the first and last of mine.

Bentong trip (22th Oct 2016) was the day I confessed, and the 12 days after that were one of the best moments that happened in my life.

We shared the same smile; We laughed over little dumb things; We had the in sync moment over Rela uncle. We let Rainbow back to the wild (kinda sad); we walked in the park; we had ice cream in the car; we hugged each other it felt so warm; we even played Left4Dead together.

Yet thing changed so quickly over a month.

3rd of November, the night where she came to me with troubles over her head, and she decided to take a break. I let her go, presuming what I thought was best for her. Everything went into thin air the week after.

I beat myself up several times, and my very first moment of losing trust in her has, in return, has lost hers in mine. That shall be my very regretful mistake in this relationship. I guess I'm just not good enough.

Fast forwards to now, I have resolved things twice with her, yet both of that made things worst. I always thought I'm good at these, well now it appeared that I don't.

If only I could turn back time, back to where we can know each other better, back to where we just started forging our friendship, before I hurried the momentum.

Being good to her with her has always been natural, but I can do that no more, not until she let her wall down. I guess I've over-pushed her now that I found myself annoying too. I'm so sorry for things that I have or have not done that hurt you, not giving you support when you needed it most.

She once asked me, "don't you feel sad while hugging?" And I told her I feel warm and calm. Now I do know what it is, when you realise you can't hold on to something forever, when you realise you have to let go.

I'm hoping for the days to come, that we could talk like we used to, text each other like retards would, hang out for dinner and all those little things.

"If I love you, I won't give up easily. Leaving is my last option, but if you decided to push me away, I will have to walk away, knowing I gave it my all."

And it felt like a movie, yet I've been through the best part of it.

秒速5厘米 probably pictures best of how my story went.

明明你我只有平交道如此短的距離 可是我們卻無法立即到彼此的身邊 當電車過去時 彷彿也帶走青春的歲月 那曾經等待堅守的感情 早已離去

在秒速5厘米间，他们发现了彼此。也在秒速5厘米之间，他们错过了彼此。 末时，他最后的一笑，不仅是如释重负，还是一种坦然：即使相见，时光不能倒流、过去亦不能再来。
昔日的记忆、错过的瞬间，藏于心底。细细回味纯纯的爱，开始各人的新生活。

my friends~~

weee~~~
seems that this blog is so deadly painted
I should revive it once while :3

what is that
something your friend said or did
that can remind you of him/her
when you did something similar?
or some incidents
or somehow
it just happens that you remember him/her
when you saw them :)

sorry that some I couldn't remember ~

Gary
you're the first friend of mine in SMKS :D
we wouldn't learn bad if we kept ourselves in 1rkD
but if we did so
we wouldn't get to know so much friends
we have our shoulders side by side since
and I still treat you as a very good friend :)

Michelle
I can always remember the word "best friend" came from your mouth :3
I remember how I used to stare you in the class
and you'll reply with the word "什么？" high pitch! xD

Jasmine
when I feel sleepy in the class
I remember how you used to grab my hand to keep me fresh
if you sit next to me
it's like an electrical shock :3

Chui Mun
I remember the sentence came from you
"must circle be round?"

Angel
when I saw tiffany in the OH mv
that's one act of her that remind me of you
you're cute sometimes :3

Hoi Ki
khaibet
that's how I called you
and how you called me as betkhai ! :D

Jeff Shim
any touching thing you did to me?
not sure, can't remember :3

Mun Kit
nothing good I can remember from you ~.~
maybe the mix idiom that you wrote in forecast SPM?
"近水楼台先得月，月到中秋分外明？" lol

B Bingggg
thanks for lending us those staplers puncher etc
I guess very few do really appreciate what you lent sincerely
and they do scold you when you don't lend them
cis, we, as a friend, is sometimes suck~.~

Shui
you curly hair is gone~
no more significance from you~
now left the jump shot that you can show to remind the past :D

Wai Lun
fei doiiiii~~~
you're cute fat 1 lol
I guess I'm the one that you can share most sort of things~ :3


wops.....
time's up for me!
grhhhh ...

To be continued....
(if I remembered ;)

Happy Valentine Day

HVD to u guy

though I'm still single ~
but I live my life fully till now =D

how do you guys pass?
It's actually just another normal day~

nothing special to me~

just in the night
where I have dinner together with my housemates =)

lime+onion+chillies
that's just the ingredient I want to remember to make sauce

special 1,nice taste xD

Happy New Year !

well then
I shouldn't let go this blog xD

yet ~

I'm just here to greet u guys Happy New Year ! =D

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best luck all the time

a year of prosperity
=D

DotA

DotA
I'm sure most of us have heard this game
the only online game I've been playing since form 1
I learnt this from my brother
where I found the graphics are so nice

It can be said that once you started this game
you can hardly pull yourself off from it
just like smokers
stop a day of smoking could really kill themz
but we who the non-smokers suffer the most from it z

though I'm not a very good player
some asked me to teach 'em

"no."
the only answer from me
is that I don't want any of them to be addicted to it
as myself did

sorry to mention
take for example Nico
I guess he just wanted to mix around with his dota addicted friends
I discouraged him from that
as for the SPM year he shouldn't
best, not even after it

parents always ask,
"what is it so fun about DotA?"

well
perhaps for an otaku
that's the easiest entertainment to fill up the leisure time
meanwhile facebook is getting bored

never try never know ~
sekali try tiap tiap hari mau ~

just to indicate that this game is actually harmful lol
somehow
if we know to control ourselves
that doesn't be a problem

through this game
I get to improve my friendships with each other
when many of us gather around and play, shout for the kills!!

It's year 2011!
happy new year my friends!
stay in the pink of health and keep in touch =)